Black Hole

A wave crashing onto the shore
My emotions want to fly and soar
But no
I don’t want that
Because if they come to the shore and fly freely
Than people will run and hide
And I would have to deal with moving forward
When I have barely understood what’s going on
Lost in this cloud of confusion
With no silver lining in sight
I feel as if I am empty inside
With no words of kindness
Who am I
This blackhole in my chest
Sucking all the happiness out of my life
And all I am left with is numbness and sorrow
This blanket of grief consumes me
With no heart and only anger
Hoping I will sit here and take it
And yet I rise
From the ashes
Like a phoenix
I will not willingly die
I will continue to survive
In the hopes of a better tomorrow