But Not Her

But Not Her

by Anonymous

12-16

I’ve had two years to figure this out
I’ve had time
Now I understand me
But not her
I could say fuck it one day and just kiss her
I could say fuck it one day and just find someone new
I could say fuck it…
I’m too afraid
Of losing that tiny chance
Of losing her altogether
So here I am
With a stupid plan
One of a dozen others that all fell through
Maybe this is different
She holds my hand and I think
Maybe it’s more
Please let it be more